always.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

moving on.

fine, i admit. a WHOLE big part of me still yearns for him. im just not OVER him yet. its just plain hard, dont ask why. maybe i'll not even get over him. i mean, it's like the BEST relationship ever, i swear. each time me and alis start a conversation about the guys, somehow we would just laugh off about things we talked about. though we feel pain, we still know that we love the guys. but it's just .. not meant to be. not that we want to brag or whatsoever, but it's like seriously the best of the best !

i just wish that it would somehow cross his mind to read my blog, and he would know how i feel. then he would reach back for me, and .. WELL, its just wishes ! i know. AIDHA, wake up from fairytale land ! man, this just sucks. hoping for something that has long gone. i know it would never ever never ever return. but i just wished miracle could happen right now. i wished he would realised how much i love him, and come back NOW. *smirks* but i know it all aint happening.

life's unfair. thats it. full stop. it's just plain unfair. i should just stop hoping for everything to be what it used to. i can no longer hope for it to be that way. maybe, someone should knock some sense into me. SHOUT at me, saying that he's no longer around to support me. SHOUT, saying that he no longer love me. SHOUT, saying that he's not worth my tears. tell me all this. maybe then, i would forget him. TOTALLY. ugh, seriously.

im crying yet again. GOSHHHH ! kbai.

Monday, February 28, 2011

crying.

im still crying.because you dont care.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

well, [F]s awesome is over.

*cries* we broke up. yeah, no longer awesome. its over. ive cried buckets, and im tired. but each time i got reminded of him, i start to cry yet again. i admit, he was a big part of me. back then, i was super duper happy. but with him gone, it seems as though my happiness went along with him. i may be smiling, but nobody knows the manner of my heart now. its all shattered into pieces. i trusted him, THAAAAAT much. and there he go, flipping it around like it didnt mean a thing. he has been the best ive ever had, i swear. but he's just not meant to be mine. i admit, i was super angry and pissed when he told me that he wants a break. but i know that i can stay angry at him not for long. because thats his decision, which i have to respect. of course, i still am disheartened over the current situation. i wished i could have turn the time back, and undo things that happened. I WISH ! or maybe, i wished that all these were just nightmares and i would wakeup from them soon. i didnt really expect it to turn out this way. i still loved him, a big part of me. but i know, that it'd go nowhere. no matter how hard i wished, it would still be gone and never coming back. but it just hurts damn muchhh.

kbai. it hurts so bad, im crying yet again.

thats the story.

one :

this is us. or maybe

'was'.

pinkies.

you held my hands tight.

hugged me tight.

passionate kiss.

then, we stopped talking.

and i realised i was alone.

you were not around anymore.

avoiding me.

heartless.

all fake, all lies.

''im okay'' not.

moving on ?

*crying*

memories hurt.

can i ..

GOODBYE, dearest.


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